Part.1
I’m going to be repeating this outfit on actual Halloween for a photoshoot!
I knew it, but it doesn’t make me feel any better. My doctor is 99.8% sure I have PCOS. I have an ultrasound scheduled for next week to confirm 100%. I should have taken care of this as soon as i noticed myself changing, I hate what I’ve become. I don’t even know if its curable, or just maintainable. I can’t even imagine if I can’t do anything about it.
All I want is pizza, not to be on my period and to not be so unbelievably nervous!
…is that to much to ask for?
It’s been 12 hours since I left the bay area, and I already want to go back :’[ I feel like my heart was broken haha I miss it more than I should!
Now enjoy my awesomely blurry photo of the Golden Gate Bridge!
The bay area is overwhelming! Sooo different from Southern California. There’s so much to look at and do I can’t contain myself! So I started by sitting in a Joanns fabrics off Tamal Vista relaxing from the long ride LOL
Job testing is at 1:30 I have no idea what to do till then! I do however know I want to live here someday, provided I can afford it, its just so damn beautiful!
Oh black hair, how I’ve missed you! #nofilter (Taken with Instagram)
I hate venting publicly, but I need to
I’m going insane trying to find a job, and dead scared if I get seasonal I won’t be kept on permanently, to the point were I’m convincing myself I won’t be. It’s a really sharp double edge sword.
I’m trying so hard to get out from under my mum sooner now than ever because of the events going on with her life, if I don’t she’ll take my husband and I down with her.
And on top of that, I can’t move to an area with a ‘better’ economy because I can’t afford to.
I’m going to explode.
Being a 20 year old in this economy is IMPOSSIBLE.
Life just got harder, if we don’t find a job by the time my brothers baby is born, we could be homeless. If anyone here on Tumblr can help me out at all it would be greatly appreciated! I just want a chance.
Consists of:
Filling out job applications
Sims 3
and total optimism
A family member gave me her HUGE hope chest that her husband bought her for Christmas in 1948.
I’m really enjoying burning cds again lol reminds me of the old days, you know, when it all wasn’t digital. Yay having a car with a cd player!
With all these seasonal jobs, I’m hoping I (we) get something! …and actually get to stay on. I’m not a religious person, but I have a lot of faith right now.
Poor Anthony is a little gun shy from last year, but I hope he gives Target another chance, he was such a good employee and we can’t afford not to try again. Wish us luck!
I’m tired of people saying my husband and I are not trying to get a job and live out from under my mother.I’m tired of spending endless hours, days, weeks applying for jobs I’ve applied to millions of times just to get something. I’m tired of crying every night because I’m a married 20 year old with no life ahead of her because of our economy. I’m tired of feeling uneducated because I cannot go back to college due to previous college debt and fear of more. I’m tired of living in an area with 0 jobs and not being able to move or commute to one with better jobs. I’m tired of scrounging for money to get essential things like tampons or deodorant. I’m tired of living off of government aid. All i want is to be able to support myself, to go to a job everyday, work hard, and have a family. Obviously the american dream. but I’m not even given the chance.
I don’t know what to do, I’ve kept my chin up for over 2 years and what good has it done?
I wish someone would just give me the chance
